This is called procrastination from a mountain of home work and SAT prep work (my SAT test is two weeks away and I haven't prepared much)... + I was up way too late doing art last night and I'm tired.

So, the christmas list!
Do you have one ? I remember doing this last year. I got surprising results actually I was really blessed by two people in particular from deviantART. I'm sure you know who you are.

What are 5 things you want for christmas, or even just one or two? (unlikely as they may be)

My five, somewhat random, but all true.
1. To see one of my friends who lives far away (-just like last year, though it never happened).
2. Gift Art
3. Clothing
4. Subscription ...mine is running out in Jan, but I'm not buying myself another one so I may just have to deal with it.
5. Prints!


Kristy

^{*wants to crawl under a rock and pretend she never tried to be an artist*}

Art Status
- Digital, - Traditional

Commissions:
NONE
NONE

Trades:
Photo Manip for ~TwilightMyst (0%)
Zebraunicorn for *SelenaH (0%)

Personal Projects:
K & A (85%)
Born of the Night (20%)
Manyu (45%)
Sabiha (15%)
Jes & Me (40%)
Self Portrait (0%)
Saycara (30%)
Aasifa Graphite (15%)
Toddlers for my mom (0%)



Things you should know...
-- I don't take requests, but if I have slots open I'd probably love to do a trade with you or take a commission! Contact me by note or e-mail (kristenmritz@gmail.com).
-- Please do not repost any of my art, photography, or writing anywhere without written consent from me! Blogs and roleplaying sites are out of the question.
-- I like critique, sometimes it's hard to tell what is wrong with things, other times it's just nice to have a second opinion, if you have something to say, by all means say it!
-- I love hearing from people, which includes friendly comments, notes and page comments!
-- I love gifts and fan art, feel free to draw my characters and please link me!

Better! I can't believe I was feeling so rotten as to make such a depressing journal. But I really was. In any event, I was really very miserable to any of those who have doubts as to my honesty.

Yesterday the side pain had just disappeared and I was feeling much better. I got a lot of homework done and my back is feeling a bit more optomistic now that I'm off the couch back into my desk chair.

To make things even better, I'm drinking Earl Grey tea (sugar and milk of course) and drawing a dog. Yes dear, ~Qadr, your trade finally! It's a little loose but not too loose or I would have finished it already.

Thank you for all the well wishes, I just had to get all that nasty stuff off of my front page now that I'm feeling better. Best wishes for everyone preparing for the holidays! I'm just wondering how I'm going to afford presents for people. And I'd love to do a holiday art piece.

Lastly, I just wanted to say that Manyu has now become an excercise piece, I no longer have hopes for it being a masterpiece it's too ... strange, and I think his pose isn't right for the scenery. Hah. The dog will be finished today. Don't expect to see anything else anytime soon besides trades and the fall picture.

Oh, and I really want this:
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I think the smalls will be sold out before I make up my mind.
What are you guys looking at for the holidays? Do you have high hopes for anything or plans?


Kristy

Art Status
- Digital, - Traditional

Commissions:
NONE
NONE

Trades:
Photo Manip for ~TwilightMyst (0%)
Dog for ~Qadr (100%) Need to mail.
Zebraunicorn for *SelenaH (0%)

Personal Projects:
Christmas Project! (shhhh!!!!!)
K & A (65%)
Born of the Night (20%)
Ansam (100%)
Manyu (45%)
Sabiha (15%)
Jes & Me (40%)
Self Portrait (5%)
Saycara (5%)
Aasifa Graphite (15%)
Toddlers for my mom (10%)



Things you should know...
-- I don't take requests, but if I have slots open I'd probably love to do a trade with you or take a commission! Contact me by note or e-mail (kristenmritz@gmail.com).
-- Please do not repost any of my art, photography, or writing anywhere without written consent from me! Blogs and roleplaying sites are out of the question.
-- I like critique, sometimes it's hard to tell what is wrong with things, other times it's just nice to have a second opinion, if you have something to say, by all means say it!
-- I love hearing from people, which includes friendly comments, notes and page comments!
-- I love gifts and fan art, feel free to draw my characters and please link me!

I'm still here!! Can you believe it?

No comment about Obama... though I'm happy we have an African American president, that's pretty awesome. The values of the two different parties scare me a bit though, I'm just tentatively waiting to see what happens.

My other older brother is now married! He was married on the 1st, so that's why I dropped off the face of the planet, at least, that's one reason. I had a crunch for the end of the first quarter in school too.

Art has gone down the tubes as I've been exhausted and busy, and I can't say it will come back up this week, sorry! I am actually getting inspired again, but I have very little time and need to study spanish and chemistry and all those lovely things that don't stick in my scatter-brained head. Annnd my english teacher is hyperactive and scares me to death.

To be honest, I need a bit of encouragement and it's lonely over here.

That's all for now have a lovely day.


Kristy

Art Status
- Digital, - Traditional

Commissions:
NONE
NONE

Trades:
Photo Manip for ~TwilightMyst (0%)
Dog for ~Qadr (20%)
Zebraunicorn for *SelenaH (0%)

Personal Projects:
K & A (65%)
Born of the Night (20%)
Ansam (100%)
Manyu (45%)
Sabiha (15%)
Jes & Me (40%)
Self Portrait (5%)
Saycara (5%)
Aasifa Graphite (15%)
Toddlers for my mom (10%)



Things you should know...
-- I don't take requests, but if I have slots open I'd probably love to do a trade with you or take a commission! Contact me by note or e-mail (kristenmritz@gmail.com).
-- Please do not repost any of my art, photography, or writing anywhere without written consent from me! Blogs and roleplaying sites are out of the question.
-- I like critique, sometimes it's hard to tell what is wrong with things, other times it's just nice to have a second opinion, if you have something to say, by all means say it!
-- I love hearing from people, which includes friendly comments, notes and page comments!
-- I love gifts and fan art, feel free to draw my characters and please link me!

Don't worry to all you people who don't want to read or comment another long journal about life and issues that people have. You can close this tab now if you'd like I'm not expecting a lot of comments. I'm just talking.

However, before I get into all that jazz, I'll update you. I finished my third of five trades. Other stuff in progress is in the box below...and random projects I haven't mentioned, it may interest you to know I'm playing with my prismas! For the first time since I was like 10 I'm trying out colored pencils, it's quite interesting anyway. IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED I may open commissions. I know it's hard to get commissions here but I may be open if I find any interest. I'll be reasonable with prices so let me know if you have any desire for something of that sort. I'd love to do a really painty kitchen item maybe or coffee shop idea if I have time but I'm not sure how that will play out... the cheese for example, maybe onions or something that would look nice in a kitchen. Relatively easy and quick but look cool anyway. I'm still trying to decide if I'll tackle christmas presents this year.

Also, ~Qadr has finished her half of our trade and it is located in the features, so take a look.

Now for the talk...
I know there are other people who feel like me - that the things they do aren't worth much, the skills they have aren't that advanced - despite what other people say, I know there are plenty of people who at age 16 were or are much better artists than I am. My little sister for instance is a brilliant artist, she is bold enough to try different mediums and enjoys writing stories like I do as well. The difference between us is that she's been bold enough to step out with it. And I'll be honest, I'm proud of her...and very jealous.

I'm not asking for you to tell me I'm talented, on the contrary, but neither am I saying that I am not. I know I am, I'm not going to go pity-party on you all about it, but I also know there is plenty of room for improvement and despite my greatest efforts there will ALWAYS be people better than me, but there also will always be people not as advanced as me. I'm not depressed about my art, actually, believe it or not, I'm feeling pleased with what I've accomplished. It's a new feeling so don't think I'm going to turn into a snob all of a sudden, but it is really encouraging. I don't think having confidence is the same thing as being prissy.

My oldest brother was just over (married, age 24) with his wife and played a song for my fam (he's an incredible bass and electric guitar player as well as acoustic and has the perfect hand for classical) it had words and has to be one of the most amazing songs I've heard. I loved the melody...everything! The funny thing was, I asked myself several times if I just liked it because it was my brother, truth be told, no. I liked it because he is super talented and has an incredible gift. Someday, and hopefully not terribly far away, I want to write a song like that. I wish I was as skilled as he is with guitar - now THAT would be amazing. I love music, art, and writing.

My point? I'm frusturated. I feel like I'm still growing, the difference between where I start in a painting and where I finish is so great they almost don't match, even if it isn't that noticeable to you, but at the same time, I'm stuck with references and for the most part black and white traditional. I'm going to try and dig out some of my parents pastels and have a go if I can finish some other art projects, but why oh why do the things in my head always fail to explain themselves properly to my hands? Maybe someday it will come through, someday I'll say what I want to say and formulate my words, someday I'll figure out what to do with my free time...how to spend it between art, music, and writing... for now I'm just waiting. Not wasting time, but learning to wait in peace for direction.
We're on so many different pages, you and I, yet somehow all in the same book. *sigh* So many thoughts, so little space, so few people to listen.


Kristy

Art Status
- Digital, - Traditional

Commissions:
NONE
NONE

Trades:
Photo Manip for ~TwilightMyst (0%)
Dog for ~Qadr (20%)
Zebraunicorn for *SelenaH (0%)

Personal Projects:
K & A (65%)
Born of the Night (20%)
Ansam (100%)
Manyu (45%)
Sabiha (15%)
Jes & Me (40%)
Self Portrait (5%)
Saycara (5%)
Aasifa Graphite (15%)
Toddlers for my mom (10%)



Things you should know...
-- I don't take requests, but if I have slots open I'd probably love to do a trade with you or take a commission! Contact me by note or e-mail (kristenmritz@gmail.com).
-- Please do not repost any of my art, photography, or writing anywhere without written consent from me! Blogs and roleplaying sites are out of the question.
-- I like critique, sometimes it's hard to tell what is wrong with things, other times it's just nice to have a second opinion, if you have something to say, by all means say it!
-- I love hearing from people, which includes friendly comments, notes and page comments!
-- I love gifts and fan art, feel free to draw my characters and please link me!